SHAKEN Jade Goody broke down on live television yesterday and wept that she had ruined her children’s lives.
The race row star revealed plans to see a psychiatrist — and voiced fears that sons Bobby Jack, three, and Freddy, two would be “rejected”.
But, as sources revealed she was on the brink of suicide, she STILL maintained she was not a racist, adding: “In my biggest rage I’ve never come out with a racist comment.”
Jade, 25 — whose bullying of Indian actress Shilpa Shetty on Celebrity Big Brother sparked worldwide outrage — returned to the Channel 4 show’s studio in Elstree, Herts, to be interviewed yesterday.
She said: “I hold my hands up, my behaviour was wrong and nasty. I can see why a lot of people would be offended.
“I am sincerely sorry. I promise to God I am — and to Shilpa’s parents. I wouldn’t have wanted to watch my children go through that.”
Jade — who hit fame on Big Bruv 3 and had her sons with TV presenter Jeff Brazier — wept again as she denied her remorse was a cynical attempt to rescue her career.
She said: “I just want to get it clear to everybody out there that I am not a racist.
“My biggest fear is that my kids will be rejected — not that I’ll never work again.
“I hadn’t much to lose before, but I have now. I have got two children — I don’t want them rejected because of me.”
Revealing her plan to see a psychiatrist, she admitted: “I’m not happy with myself.